Ashnikko - Panic Attacks in Paradise

Typical of me to go and ruin the party
Everybody says they love me but I'm still broken hearted
They call me Polly Pessimism, I'm a macabre Barbie (I love you)
My boyfriend wants to love me but I won't let him
I've been predisposed to trauma since I was eleven
So I wrote a couple albums to let out some aggression
I hate that I'm so self-deprecating
More comfortable in bad situations
Sucker for a little devastation
And this always happens